Eterna soledad

De repente nasceu um bichinho no interior daquela alma. Não deu importância até crescer, espalhar-se, fazer apodrecer... 

Que perigosa é a tal da solidão."

No, I am not a child anymore; I have grown and matured through the adversity. But why do I yearn for the loving hands of my mom or any one of my family, or even of someone I know. Please come close to me in this lonely hour, please hold my hand tight and give to me love and power so I may overcome this arduous journey.

–Đặng Thùy Trâm, Last Night I Dreamed of Peace

Entre tantas frases soltas,
Em meio a situações não resolvidas,
Tudo que eu preciso é
Um ponto final.

Wait

I wait
For a bus.
For a way out.
For a reason to keep going.
But not for you anymore.

Sorry for all the shit that I post.
But I always feel alone and I need someone to talk with.

I was

I was full of hope.
I was naive.
I was a dreamer.
I thought that life was easy for everyone.
Again: I was naive.
I can't go back to the way that I was.
I saw many things, I lived long enought to see that everything can be worse.
you will try and fail.
you will try and win.
But after all nothing metters.
You don't get the happy ending.
at Ieast stil don't get mine.

Get away from the darkness

The darkness came when you was hopeless and fragile.
The evil voices appeared in your head telling you all that shit that scares you most.
You couldn't see any way out.
You was stuck and crying.
So you tried to take off the pain but you forgot that at the same time you also took your life.

End me

I'm tring my best everyday to not end my life.
How can I found that old me?
I keep asking me for help but all than I get is the sound of me pulse.
I'm walking in circles.
I can do nothing.
I have this pain in my guts that's makes me wanna kill this bastard demon inside me.
There is life.
There is pain.
There is love and joy.
And there is nothing.
I just wanna silence.

How can I keep living when I'm already dead inside?

Today

Today wasn't a good day.
I hurt myself.
I cried.
I was feeling empty and nothing could make me complete.
I think that I lost today.
Maybe tomorrow be diferente.